manja

menyadari sesuatu terkadang bener-bener bisa bikin depressed. menyadari betapa begitu banyak keputusan-keputusan (yg sptnya kecil) yang dulu kita buat bisa mempengaruhi kehidupan kita saat ini in a big way.. dan tak terbayangkan. seandainya waktu bisa diputar kembali. seorang teman bilang dia justru ngeri membayangkannya. karena sesulit apapun hidup saat ini. anugerah-Nya amat melimpah.
hhh.. entah kenapa hari ini terasa mellow banget. bawaan rasanya sesak dan pengen nangis. homesick. diingatkan akan keberadaan orang-orang yang paling kita cintai didunia jauh disana. kapan terakhir kali menyapa mereka di pagi hari? kapan terakhir kali ketawa bersama mereka? kapan terakhir kali melihat senyuman di wajah mereka? wondering apakah mereka merasakan hal yang sama. menyesali keputusan 'sok berani' untuk pergi jauh dari rumah. terkadang disaat-saat seperti ini rasanya dingin, sepi dan sendiri banget. dan kembali merasa seperti anak kecil yang kangen mama nya. ah dasar manja.

try to remember

Try to remember the kind of September
when life was slow and oh, so mellow

Try to remember the kind of September
when grass was green and grain was yellow

Try to remember the kind of September
when you were a tender and callow fellow
Try to remember and if you remember
then follow

Try to remember when life was so tender
that no one wept except the willow

Try to remember when life was so tender that
dreams were kept beside your pillow

Try to remember when life was so tender that
love was an ember about to billow
Try to remember and if you remember
then follow

Deep in December it's nice to remember
although you know the snow will follow

Deep in December it's nice to remember
without the hurt the heart is hollow

Deep in December it's nice to remember
the fire of September that made us mellow
Deep in December our hearts should remember
and follow

my lucky star

have always walked alone
my heart is filled with such emptiness
too many excuses
it's not lonely outside
yet i couldnt find back my freedom

love had once passed me by
I like to linger in my memories
I'm used to searching for your love
just your love is enough
all this time, we were always there
in that most beautiful moment in time

your familiar tenderness
has never left me
in your heart i see
all that i possess
and you have been waiting for me too
no matter how many languanges are spoken
it still so hard to express this promise
i wont let go
i want to love you...*fearlessly...

sound of silence

Hello darkness, my old friend,
Ive come to talk with you again,
Because a vision softly creeping,
Left its seeds while I was sleeping,
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence.

In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone,
neath the halo of a street lamp,
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of
A neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence.

And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more.
People talking without speaking,
People hearing without listening,
People writing songs that voices never share
And no one deared
Disturb the sound of silence.

Fools said i,you do not know
Silence like a cancer grows.
Hear my words that I might teach you,
Take my arms that I might reach you.
But my words like silent raindrops fell,
And echoed
In the wells of silence

And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon God they made.
And the sign flashed out its warning,
In the words that it was forming.
And the signs said, the words of the prophets
Are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls.
And whisperd in the sounds of silence.