Fireflies

You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Lit up the world as I fell asleep
Cause they fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You'd think me rude, but I
Would just stand and stare.

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly.
It's hard to say that I'd
Rather stay awake when I'm asleep,
Cause everything is never as it seems.

Cause I'd get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightening bugs
As they tried to teach me how to dance.
A foxtrot above my head,
A sock-hop beneath my bed,
The disco ball is just hanging by a thread.

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly.
It's hard to say that I'd
Rather stay awake when I'm asleep,
Cause everything is never as it seems.
(When I fall asleep.)

Leave my door open just a crack.
(Please take me away from here.)
Cause I feel like such an insomniac.
(Please take me away from here.)
Why do I tire of counting sheep?
(Please take me away from here.)
When I'm far too tired to fall asleep
To ten million fireflies.
I'm weird, cause I hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell.
But I'll know where several are
If my dreams get real bizarre
Cause I saved a few,
And I keep them in a jar.

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly.
It's hard to say that I'd
Rather stay awake when I'm asleep,
Cause everything is never as it seems.
(When I fall asleep.)

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly.
It's hard to say that I'd
Rather stay awake when I'm asleep
Because my dreams are bursting at the seams

when things are taken for granted

kesel banget rasanya hari ini. jadi re-think bahwa memang tidak ada orang yang betul-betul tulus dengan diri kita selain those we are related to. the person that i thought would be the least to be like that, ternyata sama aja. too close can be sesuatu yang buruk. when we're just too close kita cenderung untuk taking things for granted with that person. hanya tidak menyangka. nyebelin banget. udah gak nyimak, insensitive lagi... sedih! kangen suasana dulu...

one of the brightest stars

One day your story will be told,
One of the lucky ones, who's made his name

One day they'll make you glorious,
Beneath the lights of your deserved fame.
And it all comes round once in life a lifetime like it always does
Everybody loves you cause you've taken a chance out on a dance to the moon, too soon

And they'll say told you so, we were the ones who saw you first of all
We always knew that you were one of the brightest stars

One day they'll tell you that you've changed

Though they're the ones who seem to stop and stare

One day you'll hope to make the grave, before the papers choose to send you there.

And it all comes round once in a lifetime like it always does,
Nobody loves you cause you've taken a chance out on a dance to the moon, too soon

And they'll say told you so, we were the ones who saw you first of all,
we always knew that you were one of the brightest stars

And they'll say told you so, we were the ones who saw you first of all,
we always knew that you were one of the brightest stars

my birthday boy

Today is Arai 2nd birthday.. Gak kerasa he's 2 yo! Selamat ulang tahun sayang :) mommy loves you..

Dear God...

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love
Hope is hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
And where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around
When I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again, oh no
Once again

There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
And all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
To hold her when I'm not around,
When I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
When hope begins to fade...

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love
Hope is hard to find

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
To hold her when I'm not around,
When I'm much too far away
We all need the person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again...

judulnya menyesal.

awalnya sedih sekali. tapi dijalani semua seems okay. agak menyesal kenapa tidak dari dulu-dulu. coba sadarnya dari dulu. udah spog kali. he he he dueh capek menyesali diri, saatnya - bersihkan hati, jernihkan pikiran - fokuskan diri! setuju?

sabar vs emosi

Wuah. gak tidur semaleman. beberapa hari belakangan ini capek banget. ini aja baru sampe rumah jam 5 pagi. btw ada satu pasien tadi (yang ternyata seorang perawat) yang bener2 melelahkan to deal with. complain kiri kanan. ini gak bener lah. itu gak bener. gak mau diperiksa dokter cowok lah bahkan perawat cowok yg mau ambil darahnya utk diperiksa lab pun gak mau, harus perempuan. gak mau di tes ini itu dengan alasan udah pernah. entah kapan. and for the first time setelah sekian lama, rasanya emosi memuncak. mungkin sempat agak ngebentak dikit siy tadi. sekitar 1 jam lebih kubujuk dan kusuntik anti sakit baru mau tidur telentang utk diperiksa. ampyun deh. untung batas kesabaran masih tinggi. tapi ternyata betul yang ku curigai, dan memang case spt ini nyeri sekali. intra op tadi sempat menyesali diri kenapa bentak ini pasien tadi. padahal memang sakit dan she has all the rights to be the way she acted. ah seharusnya bisa lebih sabar to deal with people, semenjengkelkan apapun, sengeselin apapun. cause either way there must be reasons. *sigh* pulang ke rumah dengan badan serasa rontok but then... looking at my two angels bobo pelukan gitu. so peaceful. terharu... sabar... sabar... sabar...